While most people who see me online consider me a very confident person, you must know that for almost a decade of my adult life, I was very insecure in most areas of my life. I cared what people thought of me way too much.
I would stay up worrying about certain friendships, and I gossiped with my girlfriends to try and fit in. I was obsessed with eating clean and working out – I mean, God forbid that I would be bigger than a size 4. ???? I was critical about my appearance and felt the need to say yes to everything so people knew how helpful I was. The problem is that I’m only one person who can handle so much, so eventually I had an emotional and physical breakdown in 2009. I remember crying my eyes out and journaling for hours until my hand hurt. I needed to get all of those insecurities out of my head and onto paper.